Well, it only took 8 days. Much much shorter than I expected, but nonetheless the inevitable occured.
I quit.
My bankroll is at $100, which is fucking pathetic. At this point, I just CANNOT afford to play these games anymore. I risk losing everything that I've worked so hard to attain up to this point. It's just fucking depressing.
I had a good run, I guess.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Monday, November 5, 2007
Sunday Pennies
Starting bankroll: $178.52
Games Played: 3
Current Bankroll: $124.69
Today's Profit/Loss: $-53.83
So today was Sunday...
I had PLANNED to play a full day today to make up for the time I missed earlier in the week, but due to my stupidity in wanting to play in a shitload of Sunday Million sats, as well as the aforementioned custom of playing in the Daily 15k and the Sunday 100k, I was only able to play in 3 6/45s total, none of which I cashed in.
However, I did cash for the first time in the Sunday 100k (though it was like 2200th place for $18), so it marks some sort of progress in my side quest to actually achieve a big score in a MTT.
The first week is officially over, and my goal I believe was to be at $200. Well, obviously you can see that I came up about $70 short of my goal, which makes next week all the more challenging. However, my 22+ tourney cashless streak was something I had yet to experience in these soft 6/45s, so HOPEFULLY I can get some positive variance together and really make a run towards $400 this week.
I don't know if I'll play much or at all tomorrow. The weekend is usually when I catch up on all the TV shows I TiVo-ed earlier in the week but didn't get around to watching (I'm a TV addict, what can I say?), and since I spent my weekend with my parents, I may have to spend all day tomorrow catching up on TV, followed by studying for a big Finance test I have on Tuesday.
fjoafjewa;ofjewaofjaewroweaoifjrijaorej
This is not going as I had hoped it would...
Games Played: 3
Current Bankroll: $124.69
Today's Profit/Loss: $-53.83
So today was Sunday...
I had PLANNED to play a full day today to make up for the time I missed earlier in the week, but due to my stupidity in wanting to play in a shitload of Sunday Million sats, as well as the aforementioned custom of playing in the Daily 15k and the Sunday 100k, I was only able to play in 3 6/45s total, none of which I cashed in.
However, I did cash for the first time in the Sunday 100k (though it was like 2200th place for $18), so it marks some sort of progress in my side quest to actually achieve a big score in a MTT.
The first week is officially over, and my goal I believe was to be at $200. Well, obviously you can see that I came up about $70 short of my goal, which makes next week all the more challenging. However, my 22+ tourney cashless streak was something I had yet to experience in these soft 6/45s, so HOPEFULLY I can get some positive variance together and really make a run towards $400 this week.
I don't know if I'll play much or at all tomorrow. The weekend is usually when I catch up on all the TV shows I TiVo-ed earlier in the week but didn't get around to watching (I'm a TV addict, what can I say?), and since I spent my weekend with my parents, I may have to spend all day tomorrow catching up on TV, followed by studying for a big Finance test I have on Tuesday.
fjoafjewa;ofjewaofjaewroweaoifjrijaorej
This is not going as I had hoped it would...
Saturday, November 3, 2007
Stopping The Bleeding/Fixing The Problem?
Starting bankroll: $114.02
Games Played: 3
Current Bankroll: $178.52
Today's Profit/Loss: $64.50
After 20+ games with no cash, I finally broke through again.
I was so sure that I was going to just give up and stop playing for the love of my sanity and bankroll, and I was going to finish the last game up and do just that. However, I managed to make the final table. After that, my goal was just to cash (yeah, I know, scared money). Once I cashed, it was like a huge relief. I could finally play my game without the monkey on my back of going so long without a cash.
It was so surreal. Once I cashed, I knew I was going to win. And win is what I did. I have now won half of the games in which I've cashed, which I honestly think is a pretty reliable statistic, even for such a small sample size.
So, even though I'm not where I want to be, I feel much better about everything. I can rest easy tomorrow (and I seriously am going to try to not play, lol) and enjoy my dad's birthday.
Guess I'll see you guys on Sunday.
Games Played: 3
Current Bankroll: $178.52
Today's Profit/Loss: $64.50
After 20+ games with no cash, I finally broke through again.
I was so sure that I was going to just give up and stop playing for the love of my sanity and bankroll, and I was going to finish the last game up and do just that. However, I managed to make the final table. After that, my goal was just to cash (yeah, I know, scared money). Once I cashed, it was like a huge relief. I could finally play my game without the monkey on my back of going so long without a cash.
It was so surreal. Once I cashed, I knew I was going to win. And win is what I did. I have now won half of the games in which I've cashed, which I honestly think is a pretty reliable statistic, even for such a small sample size.
So, even though I'm not where I want to be, I feel much better about everything. I can rest easy tomorrow (and I seriously am going to try to not play, lol) and enjoy my dad's birthday.
Guess I'll see you guys on Sunday.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Please Let It End
Starting bankroll: $195.522
Games Played: 11
Current Bankroll: $114.02
Today's Profit/Loss: $-81.50
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When will it stop? Yet another cashless day, and I'm practically back to where I started. In fact, my net profit is now $17.50. If I don't cash in 1 of the next 3 6/45s, I will officially be back to square 1, after meeting my weekly goal in 1 day.
Just to put it in perspective, I was 0/11 today, 0/3 yesterday, 0/6 Tuesday, and 1/10 on Monday. So I've gone cashless in at least 20 straight tourneys, if you assume my 1 cash on Monday was the last of the day. And I'm 1 for 30 overall on the week, not counting Sunday. That's fucking terrible.
My confidence is really starting to wane. I probably won't play at all tomorrow, and might not on Saturday either. We'll just see how it goes, because I may be busto before I even have a chance to start.
BTW, I've had AA at least once every day this week, and I swear to God I've only one won pot with it. Every other one I lost.
Games Played: 11
Current Bankroll: $114.02
Today's Profit/Loss: $-81.50
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When will it stop? Yet another cashless day, and I'm practically back to where I started. In fact, my net profit is now $17.50. If I don't cash in 1 of the next 3 6/45s, I will officially be back to square 1, after meeting my weekly goal in 1 day.
Just to put it in perspective, I was 0/11 today, 0/3 yesterday, 0/6 Tuesday, and 1/10 on Monday. So I've gone cashless in at least 20 straight tourneys, if you assume my 1 cash on Monday was the last of the day. And I'm 1 for 30 overall on the week, not counting Sunday. That's fucking terrible.
My confidence is really starting to wane. I probably won't play at all tomorrow, and might not on Saturday either. We'll just see how it goes, because I may be busto before I even have a chance to start.
BTW, I've had AA at least once every day this week, and I swear to God I've only one won pot with it. Every other one I lost.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Short Day/Day Off
Starting bankroll: $215.02
Games Played: 3
Current Bankroll: $195.52
Today's Profit/Loss: $-19.50
Current Percentages:
| ROI | 152.66% |
| ITM % | 19.23% |
| Top 3 % | 11.54% |
| Win % | 7.69% |
| Win-ITM% | 40.00% |
So today was supposed to be my scheduled "day off." However, I just happened to wake up early (which, 9 AM is fucking EARLLLY for a day that I don't have school or any commitment before like, 3 PM), so I decided to get on and see what happens today. Since it was supposed to be an off day, I wasn't concerned with staying on and playing a while if I didn't do well off the bat.
Obviously, Wednesdays are my day off for a reason. Played in 3 6/45s and cashed in nary a one of them. I'm not even sure I made it to the antes in any of them.
So, today was a day off. Since I'm probably leaving sometime midday on Friday, I'm going to attempt to play a LOT tomorrow, and hopefully I will win enough tomorrow to put me at my goal for this week (+200). If not, that's ok. I will have my laptop with me this weekend, and I may get a chance to play, or I may not. And even though I started counting my scores on part of Sunday, I will consider Sunday the official "end" of each week, so I will most likely have the entire day on Sunday to chase any losses and/or attempt to gain ground for next week.
No one ever said it'd be easy...
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Bad Habit or Smart Decision?
Starting bankroll: $254.02
Games Played: 6
Current Bankroll: $215.02
Today's Profit/Loss: $-39.00
Current Percentages:
Yet another terrible fucking day for the J-Dizzler.
I started my day at like 11ish (skipping classes FTW), and right off the bat, I doubled up with QQ on my first table, then busted another person to put me at 4500 by like the 5th hand. Things were looking good.
Then, obviously, I got a run of good cards (and by good cards, I mean mid pocket pairs), and I couldn't let go of them early enough and ended up bleeding a lot of chips. I played in 6 tournies today, and I'm pretty sure I busted 8th, 9th, or 10th in at least 4 of them.
Just as an example of how bad it was, I open shoved with 10 BBs UTG w/ like 35s or something like that, and the BB had like 900 more chips than me, and CALLED with 97o. Even if he knew I was shoving any two cards there, that is a piss poor call.
So, sometime around 2 PM, after I busted in my 6th tourney, I decided to take a break, which turned into a couple of hours, which turned into an early day. I just didn't have the will or mindset to go back and keep trying.
This is what I've been struggling with, though. I'm usually pretty good about not tilting money away, even when I'm still in a tournament after a bad beat, but usually I don't because I leave as soon as possible after I'm done with all current games, and I don't come back. Now, obviously, avoiding the tilt factor is huge and probably saves me a lot of buy-ins for the really bad times, but I also think there's a part of me that thinks I'm wasting a lot of value by not playing through the pain, so to speak. If this were a real job, I obviously wouldn't be able to just walk away. I might take 10 or 15 to chill out, but then I have to get right back on the horse.
Thoughts? Suggestions?
I don't think I'm going to play tomorrow. I mean, I only have my night class, but for some reason I just am never really in the mood to play on Wednesdays. If I wake up early enough, I might try to play and see if I can chase my losses.
My dad's birthday is on Saturday, so I likely will be going home sometime on Friday. Which means I probably won't play a whole lot, if at all, on Friday or Saturday. I will come home Sunday (hopefully in time for the 100k, if nothing else).
Ok, that's all I can think of for now. Later.
PS. Post some fucking comments. Lurkers FTL
Games Played: 6
Current Bankroll: $215.02
Today's Profit/Loss: $-39.00
Current Percentages:
| ROI | 172.58% |
| ITM % | 21.74% |
| Top 3 % | 13.04% |
| Win % | 8.70% |
| Win-ITM% | 40.00% |
Yet another terrible fucking day for the J-Dizzler.
I started my day at like 11ish (skipping classes FTW), and right off the bat, I doubled up with QQ on my first table, then busted another person to put me at 4500 by like the 5th hand. Things were looking good.
Then, obviously, I got a run of good cards (and by good cards, I mean mid pocket pairs), and I couldn't let go of them early enough and ended up bleeding a lot of chips. I played in 6 tournies today, and I'm pretty sure I busted 8th, 9th, or 10th in at least 4 of them.
Just as an example of how bad it was, I open shoved with 10 BBs UTG w/ like 35s or something like that, and the BB had like 900 more chips than me, and CALLED with 97o. Even if he knew I was shoving any two cards there, that is a piss poor call.
So, sometime around 2 PM, after I busted in my 6th tourney, I decided to take a break, which turned into a couple of hours, which turned into an early day. I just didn't have the will or mindset to go back and keep trying.
This is what I've been struggling with, though. I'm usually pretty good about not tilting money away, even when I'm still in a tournament after a bad beat, but usually I don't because I leave as soon as possible after I'm done with all current games, and I don't come back. Now, obviously, avoiding the tilt factor is huge and probably saves me a lot of buy-ins for the really bad times, but I also think there's a part of me that thinks I'm wasting a lot of value by not playing through the pain, so to speak. If this were a real job, I obviously wouldn't be able to just walk away. I might take 10 or 15 to chill out, but then I have to get right back on the horse.
Thoughts? Suggestions?
I don't think I'm going to play tomorrow. I mean, I only have my night class, but for some reason I just am never really in the mood to play on Wednesdays. If I wake up early enough, I might try to play and see if I can chase my losses.
My dad's birthday is on Saturday, so I likely will be going home sometime on Friday. Which means I probably won't play a whole lot, if at all, on Friday or Saturday. I will come home Sunday (hopefully in time for the 100k, if nothing else).
Ok, that's all I can think of for now. Later.
PS. Post some fucking comments. Lurkers FTL
Monday, October 29, 2007
The Fall After The Rise
Starting bankroll: $295.02
Games Played: 10
Current Bankroll: $254.02
Today's Profit/Loss: $-41.00
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Well, I honestly can't say today was a success. I played in 10 6/45s today, and I only managed to cash in one today, good enough for a 5th place. I final tabled 3 or 4 more of these, only to go out in 8th or 9th place. There's nothing more frustrating than getting to the final table looking to score, only to get shut out. But with the way I choose to play these tournies, I'm going to have a lot more bubbles than most, but when I do cash, it's going to usually be big.
In fact, I played around with Excel today and came up with a few percentages that were very interesting:
Obviously most of you know what these all mean, but just in case, it wouldn't hurt to go over it. ROI is basically how much I am getting back for what I invest in the tournament (ie. total winnings divided by total buy-ins). ITM% is the percentage of the time I've made it in the money when entering these tournies. Top 3 % is how many times I make the top 3 spots in the tourney when I enter. Win % is how many times I win in the tourney when I enter. And Win-ITM% is the percentage of the time I've won the entire tourney when I make it into the money.
Now, of course, this is a sample size of 17, so it's nothing to write home about as fact, but I'm willing to bet that these stats are fairly representative of my play. I don't make it into the money all THAT often, but when I do, I take the tournament down a good percentage of the time.
Anyways, I didn't feel like I was playing or running particularly well today. I made a couple of questionable plays that I probably shouldn't have, and I ran terribly.
I had this one tournament today where I swear to God, like 90% of the hands I saw from beginning to end had at LEAST 2 people all-in (well, I guess I mean an all-in and a call). It was the absolute craziest table I had ever experienced in my short poker career, and that includes most rebuys.
In fact, if you don't believe me, I uploaded the HH to PXF (don't worry, the link is public, so you don't have to sign up for it to view it):
http://www.pokerxfactor.com/HH93638/craziness
Just trust me.
Anyways, I ended my day at about 7. I took a little too much time off in between games, but I'm proud of the fact that I actually kept at it despite my piss-poor day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Variance happens.
I left my laptop on last night while I slept so that I could finish downloading Dexter (don't get Showtime, but I HAVE to see Dexter asap...his sponsor is hooottttt), and I was pretty worried that it would overheat or something. I have used a desktop for as long as I can remember, and I pretty literally didn't turn my desktop off since I got it in the summer of 2003 (only when I absolutely had to), and it worked perfectly fine up until I moved into this new apartment, and now suddenly the monitor no longer works.
But, do any of you have any suggestions in relation to my laptop? Is it kosher to leave it running like that, or is turning it off and giving it a rest mandatory?
Ok, I think I talked about everything. Later.
PS. GO SOX!!!!!!! SUCK IT NEW YORK!
Games Played: 10
Current Bankroll: $254.02
Today's Profit/Loss: $-41.00
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Well, I honestly can't say today was a success. I played in 10 6/45s today, and I only managed to cash in one today, good enough for a 5th place. I final tabled 3 or 4 more of these, only to go out in 8th or 9th place. There's nothing more frustrating than getting to the final table looking to score, only to get shut out. But with the way I choose to play these tournies, I'm going to have a lot more bubbles than most, but when I do cash, it's going to usually be big.
In fact, I played around with Excel today and came up with a few percentages that were very interesting:
| ROI | 233.48% |
| ITM % | 29.41% |
| Top 3 % | 17.65% |
| Win % | 11.76% |
| Win-ITM% | 40.00% |
Obviously most of you know what these all mean, but just in case, it wouldn't hurt to go over it. ROI is basically how much I am getting back for what I invest in the tournament (ie. total winnings divided by total buy-ins). ITM% is the percentage of the time I've made it in the money when entering these tournies. Top 3 % is how many times I make the top 3 spots in the tourney when I enter. Win % is how many times I win in the tourney when I enter. And Win-ITM% is the percentage of the time I've won the entire tourney when I make it into the money.
Now, of course, this is a sample size of 17, so it's nothing to write home about as fact, but I'm willing to bet that these stats are fairly representative of my play. I don't make it into the money all THAT often, but when I do, I take the tournament down a good percentage of the time.
Anyways, I didn't feel like I was playing or running particularly well today. I made a couple of questionable plays that I probably shouldn't have, and I ran terribly.
I had this one tournament today where I swear to God, like 90% of the hands I saw from beginning to end had at LEAST 2 people all-in (well, I guess I mean an all-in and a call). It was the absolute craziest table I had ever experienced in my short poker career, and that includes most rebuys.
In fact, if you don't believe me, I uploaded the HH to PXF (don't worry, the link is public, so you don't have to sign up for it to view it):
http://www.pokerxfactor.com/HH93638/craziness
Just trust me.
Anyways, I ended my day at about 7. I took a little too much time off in between games, but I'm proud of the fact that I actually kept at it despite my piss-poor day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Variance happens.
I left my laptop on last night while I slept so that I could finish downloading Dexter (don't get Showtime, but I HAVE to see Dexter asap...his sponsor is hooottttt), and I was pretty worried that it would overheat or something. I have used a desktop for as long as I can remember, and I pretty literally didn't turn my desktop off since I got it in the summer of 2003 (only when I absolutely had to), and it worked perfectly fine up until I moved into this new apartment, and now suddenly the monitor no longer works.
But, do any of you have any suggestions in relation to my laptop? Is it kosher to leave it running like that, or is turning it off and giving it a rest mandatory?
Ok, I think I talked about everything. Later.
PS. GO SOX!!!!!!! SUCK IT NEW YORK!
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